How to Find More Clarity in My Life?

In the last few weeks I have been writing down all my thoughts in my tablet, or blogging. The benefit I reap from writing down my feelings, confusions, and fears verbally is that I get more clarity in my thoughts. I start to understand more of myself - my strengths & weaknesses.

Sometimes I blow a small issue out of proportion, and give it more importance than it's necessary. When I write down those small issues and read them, I find them very trivial to worry of.

I Drive Myself Crazy By Listening to Myself

Sometimes I worry too much of the smallest details. This quality definitely helps me in my job to put all pieces together to solve a complex problem. But whenever I habitually analyze myself I end up with countless random thoughts and possibilities. They drive me crazy because our mind is limitless. I realize I should start being more focused. Instead of thinking so many thoughts, I would just think of just one thought. Just one question to focus at a time.

Five More Weeks Till

I exhaustively read as many reviews as I can before signing up for the vacation. They say this will change everything. They say I should take it before it too late. They say that it's like taking the red pill in Matrix. I believe this is one of best investment I might be making for myself in this year beside passing an expensive certification on September. So I am spending my fortune to travel Dallas and will do my best to make it worth while. The only problem is I have to wait five more weeks and it's going so slow. I bought plane tickets, hotel reservations, shuttle appointments, took my paid time off, and made partial payment for the seminar in advance. I am restless. But I am glad I going to start my new project on Monday. I will be so busy in the next 3 weeks that I will never know when the five weeks will be over.

You Can Do Anything If

I was contemplating my overall life situations and wondering how I can transform my life to the next level - more money, power & freedom. I realized I have to tackle my biggest insecurity even if it's not directly affecting my bank balance or job title. Even if no one cares of that insecurity except me, I should still face it. I realized that if I tackle the personal problem that haunt me for many years, I would have enough confidence to do anything. That's just my thought!

How to Overcome Weakness of Being Overly Sensitive?

I am a touchy-feely guy. A small innocent criticism sometimes rock my world and make me out of place once in a while. I repeat, "once in a while". Today was one of those day when thinking of something happened the other day pissed me off for no reason and my entire emotional state got unstable. Someone gave me a small fashion tips that my dress pants too tight which is improper...
I ended up seeing the world more awkwardly. I felt like my words and actions were out of place. It's not like I was inside my head all the time. I spoke with people in the coffee, chat with my coworkers, and had few project meetings. It's hard to explain, but easy explanation is that I felt sensitive & awkward. I felt inconsistent.

After coming back early today, I had a sudden realization to overcome my ultra sensitive nature. I start rewind the entire day visually without any judgement and found out that everything I did was normal and never out of ordinary. Just by seeing things as it is without putting meaning into them and associate emotions, I was able to overcome the feeling of awkwardness.

Without mental association here is how my day went - I went to office early morning, enjoyed a cup of nice green tea while chatted with people in the line, struggled through few minor project issues, attended few meetings, I remember someone saying few words about my pants, and few more normal & boring things happened. That's all. I had a normal human experience. So from now on I will try my best to see things as it is.