I am a touchy-feely guy. A small innocent criticism sometimes rock my world and make me out of place once in a while. I repeat, "once in a while". Today was one of those day when thinking of something happened the other day pissed me off for no reason and my entire emotional state got unstable. Someone gave me a small fashion tips that my dress pants too tight which is improper...
I ended up seeing the world more awkwardly. I felt like my words and actions were out of place. It's not like I was inside my head all the time. I spoke with people in the coffee, chat with my coworkers, and had few project meetings. It's hard to explain, but easy explanation is that I felt sensitive & awkward. I felt inconsistent.
After coming back early today, I had a sudden realization to overcome my ultra sensitive nature. I start rewind the entire day visually without any judgement and found out that everything I did was normal and never out of ordinary. Just by seeing things as it is without putting meaning into them and associate emotions, I was able to overcome the feeling of awkwardness.
Without mental association here is how my day went - I went to office early morning, enjoyed a cup of nice green tea while chatted with people in the line, struggled through few minor project issues, attended few meetings, I remember someone saying few words about my pants, and few more normal & boring things happened. That's all. I had a normal human experience. So from now on I will try my best to see things as it is.
I ended up seeing the world more awkwardly. I felt like my words and actions were out of place. It's not like I was inside my head all the time. I spoke with people in the coffee, chat with my coworkers, and had few project meetings. It's hard to explain, but easy explanation is that I felt sensitive & awkward. I felt inconsistent.
After coming back early today, I had a sudden realization to overcome my ultra sensitive nature. I start rewind the entire day visually without any judgement and found out that everything I did was normal and never out of ordinary. Just by seeing things as it is without putting meaning into them and associate emotions, I was able to overcome the feeling of awkwardness.
Without mental association here is how my day went - I went to office early morning, enjoyed a cup of nice green tea while chatted with people in the line, struggled through few minor project issues, attended few meetings, I remember someone saying few words about my pants, and few more normal & boring things happened. That's all. I had a normal human experience. So from now on I will try my best to see things as it is.
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