Glass Half Full

While I was reading "Success Principle" by Jack Canfield, I learned an interesting concept which I have decided to practice for the rest of my life. There are certain category of people who are called "Inverse Paranoid". They have a strong belief that no matter what the fuck happens to their life, no matter how crappy everyone treats them, and no matter how much unsuccessful attempts they have; life is plotting every single event of their life to make them a success. Can you imagine a life in which you are happy, excited and motivated regardless of what happens?  I really believe this is a powerful belief to have, so I decided to write 2 crappy things happened in my life and how it helped me to be "almost" better person (not a better in spelling or grammar person of course):

First, I was seen timid and weak boy with inferiority complex by my teachers, friends and classmates during my high school years. I was constantly bullied because of my unique accents, and I never had balls to defend myself when boys were making fun of my mom and sister. I never received help, understanding and sympathy when I needed them most. This experience influenced to help the weak when they least expect it from others. This makes me very proud.

Second, I came from a culture where people love to talk behind others back, find violence to earn respect, murdering a suitable solution, always being narrow minded, and never challenge their assumptions. This kind of attitude really made me so sick that I decided to be around positive, wise, and intelligent people for the rest of my life. I decided I would rather be alone than being around group of ignorant human beings. This also encouraged me to focus on personal development.

There are much I want to share, but I believe less is more. I really hate being overly personal and share something so negative about my life, but who gives a fuck! You don't even know where I live :) If you read this far, please think of your everyday crappy event, then find ways it is training you to be the best you could be!

Bragging Rights

I had a wonderful day. One thing I realized that I should appreciate little things, and give myself credits for my hard work and achievement no matter how trivial it is. So tonight I am going to asked myself what am I proud of today?

1. I was one of the top 3 graduates out of 100 students in Information System department who received Academic Excellence Award. My adorable friend took photos of me with all of my professors while I was receiving my award.
2. Had a casual and informal conversation with professors - Guster, Paul, Phan and Susanath while drinking beer. Professor Paul bought a drink for me to award me for tutoring his students over time, and being his best student!
3. I had an interesting conversation with my coworker Jessica and Alyssa regarding serving others, making a difference, marriage and relationship. It was a very resourceful conversation. I learned to tell nice and captivating stories. I think I have talents to demonstrate high value to my audience by my personal experiences.
4. I gave Alyssa a ride back to her apartment after she was done with her shift even though I was still working. It took me some balls to break a rule to help a friend.
5. I studied for strategic management final exam. I was`quite confident I understood most concept. There is a pretty good chance I will be get highest score in this exam and have A grade.
6. I had over $150 cell phone bill because I overused my minutes last month. Instead of panic for being broke, I let go of the feeling because it did not serve me any more and remained calm for the rest of the day.
7. I practiced the shoulder move for hip hop dance since morning, and I believe I was looking good during the evening. It would help me to impress a group of crowds in the night club. I am an attention whore after all :D
8. I think many residents in the dorm I work will miss me after I graduate. They will miss my sense of humor and intellect. A friend told me I should have my own TV show :)

Spontaneous

Ever since I was 12, I have been taught to utilize my time as resourcefully as possible. Even when I was watching TV in my leisure time, my dad used to yell at me for watching stupid cartoons, and study more like my nerd friends who will never get laid. This actually influenced most of my teenage life. As a result, I still have an urge to force myself doing something valuable (i.e. study, read, work) that will have value in the future. For instance, I would rather spend my night writing a paper for my final than spending quality time with my best friend by watching movies. I guess being workaholic is in my blood.

Although I realized that this is an excellent habit to have, but I also found out that I will never be happy if I allow myself to measure/keep track of everything I do. So, today I decided to go with the flow. I fucked all the self blaming thoughts I had, and trusted my instincts. For instance, I usually try my best to finish a conversation within 1-2 minutes when I meet someone so that I could resume I was doing. However, today I met an old friend while I was going towards the library in the morning, and I decided to hang with him for couple of hours. I ended up buying some cool bracelets because his agenda was to fix his bracelet from a Native Indian shop. I even got some nice compliments from those bracelets, and have extra for Christmas gifts.

It's nice to spontaneous at times!

Gratefulness

What am I grateful of today?

1. I got a job offer. I am going to be a junior software developer.

2. I attended a club/salsa/hip-hop dancing class, and met some fun people.

3. I had a hardcore upper body workout in the evening.

4. I noticed I lost 3 more pounds!

5. I order stuffed crust pizza with veggies, and watched my favorite show - Dexter.

6. I enjoyed my hot chocolate while I was in my tutoring session.

7. Decided to go back home to meet my parents after 3 years in United States.

8. Gave some adorable friends a big hug, and a charming/award winning smile! :)

9. Staying up till 2 AM, and don't care what's going to happen next morning.

Saint Cloud

I love living in Saint Cloud. Especially during the winter. Many people use the same sentence when I ask for an opinion, "I hate winter". I can understand. But if you are going to live for a while, then why not learn to love it! It's starting to snow today. I loved myself when I was walking confidently in the street and whistled my favorite pop song. Somehow I experienced a state of abundance within myself which I was not able to create 3 years ago.

There is a pretty good chance I will live in Brained which is an hour away from St. Cloud for the next 5 years. There is also an opportunity to live in San Diego if I get another job offer. It doesn't matter what happens. I know I am guided by something greater than myself. Everything happens to make me succeed.

I am certain I will hear a good new by Friday. I will get an offer I cannot refuse. :)